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MMeO. My self-examination, question 2.

2. Who do I strive to be?

Do I strive to be different than I am? Is this question the same as "who do I want to be?" Not really. Because I'm not sure I want to be any different - well, to be someone else.

I do wish I weren't soft in my belly + thighs, but, at least as far as the latter goes, I'm not sure I would recognize myself without them. I do not like change in routine but I have learned to accept it and grow with it.

But I do strive to be less messy. I try to organize, to pick out new clothing that fits (it really isn't that easy), to get rid of things I don't like wearing. I try to embrace new fashions, but it doesn't usually work out very well.

I strive to give in to how I feel. I also strive to control how I feel with to-do lists and things for which to be responsible.

I strive to live up to my leadership roles. I strive to be more kind - but not hard enough.

My appearance is fairly consistent. I'm not sure whether or not I work at that.

I try to be comfortable in body so I can be productive in body + mind.

I strive to be clear, but I really enjoy being "cryptic" because it makes me eccentric or/and special - it means you have to know me to understand me, to "get" me.

I do not strive to be an open book. But I do strive to be in control of sharing myself with others - I try not to be protective, which is hard.

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